Iamhidingfromtheworld.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
In hiding from now till the end of exams.
Been feeling restless, watching Boys Over Flowers, logging into Suen's facebook accounts liberally (hahahah!) to manage our restaurant city accounts.
Most importantly, I feel very cooped up.
I feel like all my freedom is robbed away. And that I am tied down by obligations. I can't seem to escape the intangible binds around me.
One month away from exams. 30 days away. 29 days away. The countdown is slowly and steadily repeated in my head. It is almost driving me crazy. I can't fail. I won't fail.
I must say its hard to forget about the nearing exams. Not with my dad constantly humming in my ears: Why aren't you studying. Have you studied today? Go study.
Not when I need to explain to them everytime I am going out. Not when I need to put up with that disapproving look whenever I am doing somethings deemed not important now that exams are around the corner. Its seriously driving me mad.
I hate the feeling of the loss of freedom.
BUT.
I can't disappoint them again. Not again anyways. I need to prove to myself.
Born slacker. Hahaha can't help slacking even when I am not supposed to.
I feel like a loner and a recluse.
I was so happy on Friday when I went out for lunch with dearest Ling, Ming, and uncle. It was the most alive moment for a few months. I almost felt I was back on the ground. :) Thank you ling dearest. For organising.
Hmmm. Hopefully, every thing will remain fine.
I'll be back end May!